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My_Silverlining

The only thing I want for my birthday is in TX right now getting ready to go to class. :( Pooo. Today doesn't seem like it's going to go magnificently. Steven did call me this morning to remind me I was 19. Haha.. And last night he called really late around 12 to wish me happy birthday. What a sweety. His parents are taking me to Stonewood Friday for my birthday. I feel bad, they're already helping out so much with helping to pay for me to fly out to TX with them next month when Steven graduates. :\ AND his mom is gonna buy me some lingerie (SP?) for when we go out there hahahaha. I was going to buy it myself but hey if she wants to buy it for me go right ahead!! She said it was kinda like a birthday present.. shweet! It's just.. I wish I could help them out somehow. They do so much for me and Steven already. :\

Class tonight.. ;alisjefoiaweh

Got bored yesterday and went around taking pics. I just figured out I could take really close up pictures with my camera..so I had some fun. ;) They aren't anything SPECIAL

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Just a quick update.. I hope everyone's Xmas and New Years was amazing!! Sorry I haven't been on and not able to comment on journals. Steven leaves tomorrow so i'm gonna do a real update with pics and everything.

But way more importantly..

I'm officially engaged. XD Details tomorrow!

Hope all is well with you crazy peoples.

I finally got a job. I'm not a bum anymore!!! I can buy my own food and save to get a car now and not feel worthless and stupid!! Yaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy. I start tomorrow at 8am at The Atlanta Bread Company. They do catering and stuff. Cece said i'll be working 5 days a week and will most of the time start work at 7 in the morning. Holy freakin cow. The pay's minimum wage..but I don't freaking care. I have a job.


Me and Jess made cookies yesterday for our men.. There should be more pics later. I just wanted to share my dinosaurs.

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Tonight i'm going to see The Grudge 2. >:] I better get scared.


( This is about as fall as it gets in Florida + some rings I like )

I've been so down lately. I'm just tired of feeling alone all the time. I try and try not to resent Steven for leaving..but there's still the slightest part of me that does. I know it's wrong to resent him..because he's doing what he's always wanted to do and he's doing it for us. He had no other choice..this is to help get us on our feet. But sometimes it just hurts that he left. I wish that we could've done something that would make us both happy. I don't like feeling left behind. But the greatest things in life wouldn't be so great if you didn't have to fight for them. And I know he's worth the wait.

I got this pierced Friday night! It was spur of the moment..as are all of my piercings or whatevers that i get done. I really like it..



But more importantly... after a MONTH of not hearing my baby's voice, he called me yesterday. And although we only got to talk for a few minutes, just hearing his voice...it was incredible. I want to hit myself in the head though.. I wish I would've said so much more, but I was flabbergasted. He called right as I was fixing to get into the shower, so i pick up the phone thinking it's going to be one of my friends or my brother.. and I hear this familiar, "Hey baby" and I was shocked. lol He sounds so different.. but the same. I dunno. He sounded very depressed & just down. He said he's upset that he can't talk to me more, that writing is good but not enough, and he just worries constantly (about crap he shouldn't even be thinking about..me cheating or leaving him..stuff like that). I just wish I could've said more to him, but I didn't know what to say exactly. I was just so glad to finally get to hear his voice again.

I haven't put up pics in a while, so i figured that... I WOULD NOW! I went to some friends of mine's wedding a while back..Jessica and Kevin. And there are pics of some random stuff...


I love days like this..

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I hope everyone's weekends have been extraordinary.

sometimes i feel like i'm driving myself crazy..


i think i'm fixing to start my period or something.

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The beach was AWESOME. I have more pics but I can't put more up until I find a good place to host my pics. Right now they're all ones that are already uploaded to myspace.
Also got some good ones from last night (HAPPY 4th OF JULY BIATCHES). Fireworks are purtty.
Anyone know of a good place that can host pics for free?? And is easy to use for a tard such as myself??

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Okay the rest of the pics are ( here!!! )

the new tat


my other tat


hmmmmm..


that pic is a piece of my artwork.. pastels.. i got so tired of having to use them\

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Basically I spent the day cleaning my room, helping my dad put together a computer desk for my computer..and then cleaning my room some more.. I got frustrated because i was supposed to go to a bbq with Steven at his grandparents but i couldn't get a ride from steven because their explorer is in the shop. I turned down two of my friends who wanted to do something with me today because I thought i'd be doing that, so that was a let down. :[ but i'm over it. lol

gosh................

i need to get a job.

haha.. so i took my dad out to dinner tonight for a father's day present (yes i know it's not until sunday silly gooses). Erin came along too. and afterwards.. i decided that i wanted to get a tattoo. so got my dad to drive me and erin to bodytech. me and her found a nice little tattoo. we looked for a while but i knew for sure i wanted it on the back of my neck which is exactly what i did. it's a star thing.. yes i have a thing for stars lol my other tattoo is a shooting star on my hip. ouch... but this one didn't hurt too bad. filling in the color is always the hard part..otherwise it was cool. i'll definetly have pics soon :] yes, i am a tattoo&piercing whore!!

Maybe i will come back to LJ.. im pondering it.
there's no telling!
i just found myself in the mood to write something. hmm..so tomorrow steven gets back from his vacation thingy. how nice :]
i get to babysit caleb and ayeden tomorrow. that should be crazy.
i also have a graduation party to go to tomorrow. [a really old teacher of mine is throwing one for her students] it should be fun.
TONIGHT, i might go out dancing with mich. or we'll do SOMETHING that's for sure. i'm thinking of planning my next tattoo but i dunno. we shall see ♥

Yes, I am still alive!! Anyone that's interested can check me out at http://www.myspace.com/_emiloo

If not then poo on you lol

Got my nose pierced for my birthday >:]

Today it was FREEZING. I mean come on. What the heck is going on?!?!?!? Actually I love this weather. I wish it would stay like this longer. I definetly wasn't ready for such a cold snap this early though. WOOooo

Anyhow went up to All Cats to pick up Batman. We took him in last night to get his..something or other..and they ended up keeping him over night. Because apparently he had to be nuetered right away or all hell would break loose and the world would be doomed. I dunno. The lady made it seem really urgent that he get fixed that night. So we went to pick him up a little bit ago and he's sooooooo fucked up right now. I don't know if it's drugs or what. But he's walking all crazy and is in la la land or something. It's pretty hilarious. hahaha. Poor Batman. :[

Friday night at Steven's was funnnnn. He killed his ankle though so he wasn't doing too good. We didn't get back until 2 am. We watched Troy and ended up falling asleep on the couch together..literally got like 30 min of sleep lol Fuck that shit. Well he had to get up early in the morning for work. I don't really remember what I did Saturday or Sunday..except for that I worked Sunday night... We did hang out Monday for a while..before and after work. YAY What sucks though is I had a retarded dream last night. I dreamt that it was Halloween..and Steven was dressed as an ugly clown. And he broke up with me..so I was mean to him..and then he wanted to get back together and I was like No Steven it's too late for that crap...get away. It was kind of funny. I mean it sucked cause he broke up with me in the dream but he did it as a freakin clown. An UG FACE clown. Haha. Wow

Oh YES!!! And this Saturday me, Steven and Mich..and maybe Steven's cousin are going to Halloween Horror Nights..or Hallo-Scream..or something.. I'm not really sure. But i'm excited. HEHEHEHEHE

I'm going to Steven's game in Orlando tonight with his parents and spending the night with him afterwards. I might spend the whole weekend with him but i'm not sure yet. His mom said I could if we wanted. :] It's just he works 7 in the morning to 3:30 tomorrow and he's hanging out with me after he gets off, I might go back to his house which i'm hoping. I don't know though so we'll see.

Other than that nothing new. Stuff has been happening but it's all been a big blur. My english teacher pisses me off. She hates me. And I think it all started when I was late to make up some stupid test and she yelled at me about it. I told her that I had to go to the clinic (which I did) and she was like 'I saw you walking in the hall kissing your boyfriend doing god knows what and blah blah blah' which I was doing but I was only walking him to lunch..I just happened to stay for a little while during lunch because it was 80's day and some of our friends dressed as 80's rappers and started break dancing on a big piece of cardboard in the middle of the lunch area outside..I had to watch! It was hilarious. I had to support my G's. lol THEN I went to the clinic..and then I went to make up the test. Ever since then she always makes me feel like an idiot. Stupid butthole. I hope a dinosaur eats her one day.

OMG i'm so glad it's a 4 day weekend. But then we have this Hurricane Wilma scooting her fat ass towards us..I hope we don't get any rain while we're in Orlando. Oooo but it would be fun if our power went out for a day or two..while I was at Steven's house.. hehe. I'm sure we could find many ways to amuse ourselves.

1. What was your first childhood memory?  Hmmm...the first thing that I can think of is going to the beach with my dad and my sister every Saturday or Sunday.  Then we'd always go eat at this place called Doo-Wappa-Doo Diner afterwards and get balloons and our faces painted sometimes...lol

2. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?  Probably North Carolina.  I love the mountains up there and the weather is perfect.

3. What would your dream job be?  I dunno, probably something having to do with kids.  I love kids :]  They're so much fun!!!  They say the funniest things sometimes.

4. How old were you when you got your first kiss?  I think I was around 8 or 9.  I was forced into it.  I was playing with some neighborhood kids and there was this one boy that wouldn't let me get out of the tree that I was sitting in unless I kissed him so I did lol  Kinda sucked...

5. What is the last non-school book you read?  Hmmmm.. my sister has a book called Across the Nightengale Floor, I think that was the last one I read, I can't remember the author of the book though.

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----------------- Anyhoot. Just got off work. It was good. Went by fast. I bought some Publix sweet tea after I got off. My god...I love sweet tea. Steven came in to see me and during my cart duty I just hung out with him at his truck. Oh man. What a sexy beast he is. I definetly don't deserve him. Hah..Maya followed me out there cause she was gonna help me with carts and I really wanted to be alone with Steven but she wouldn't go the heck away and kept talking to us even while we were kissing. haha She is so weird. Kind of scares me a little... Erin left me to go over to mom's tonight.. I'm kind of sad about that. It's weird being alone at my dad's. I mean i'm not alone, there's my dad and my grandparents and Batman(HEHE). But i'm used to having Erin or Carter around. Mom hasn't called. I was going to try to talk to Carl today to see if she even wanted me to come over so I got Erin to call the house but no one answered. I don't like feeling like this. Today was going so good. And now it has all gone to shit. I cry so easily now and i'm the kind of person who never cries. Never ever. Especially not in front of anyone. Tears come so easily and without warning. But anyway..i'm really looking forward to this cool weather around the corner. I love how the air smells when it's cold outside. And the crunch of leaves under my feet. And when you can feel a cup of hot chocolate go all the way down until it hits your belly.

Today it is a month for me and Steven. haha I accidently spelled it Stecen. Well I thought it was funny.....
Man I just got off work. I hated it. Except for that I got to work with Steven. I went to his game last night in purple fairy wings (our school colors are purple and white)..and like fifty bajillion marti gra beads..and a purple wand with a star on it hahaha.. and my face all painted..it was beautimous. I got to ride in my friend Sarah's truck with Sierra during the halftime show when people competed to see who decorated their car the best for the game. I felt special cause not a lot of people get to do that. Muahahaha. Anyhoo..Steven did sooo good during the game. Too bad that we lost though. He got hit hard once or twice and he had a mild concussion after the game. I was so freakin scared for him cause he couldn't hardly stand or talk and he was soo out of it. But he called me last night and was actually able to talk and I worked with him today and he's doing better so that's good. He's coming to visit me when he gets off hehehehehee. yay.

Other than that..life has sucked. I got kicked out of my mom's. It's a long story and i've had to tell a billion different people about it.. to make it short.. she's evil now that she doesn't drink and I guess I piss her off really easily..and she says i'm selfish..so she kicked me out :\ Turd. I was about to tell her that I liked her better when she was drinking but I wisely chose to not say anything else. I had already pissed her off, didn't want to make her cry too.

Ahhh oh my gosh everyone's turning 18 and leaving me behind!!!! I got until January though. I don't want to get any older. I never wanted to turn 17 for jebus christ.

OH yeah I got my freakin evaluation at work today. It was pretty good actually. The only thing that was bad on it was that I needed help with finding products and knowing where the heck they are in the store. Otherwise..I did GOOOD.